My Scratch (3)

Today was the time for big ceremony held in every 6 months. And I was sitting on my desk; as on duty.

How am I now?Boy....I took my deep breath...LORD, how am I now? YOU know me better than myself. Need no word to say, but my heart will tells.
It hurts and leave me the gape cut; still.

The deadline is soming soon,for something unexpected to be. I am worrying about how it would be done? Would it be only the way, or could it be the last? Are we deciding the best nor the good? What will we do if everything happenned not as the one we expecting for...in fact it would be worst.

Knowing that I left behind on my way tried to mend all these things become one again, as I can't shout or say. I let everything on YOUR hand, for me to ask and pray...and keep on pray. The hard moment YOU had was not even can be taken from this,
somehow I feel it's too much already. And I almost give up!

My Scratch (2)

Sometimes I feel sad, sometimes I feel happy
Sometimes I feel bad, sometimes I feel good
But why mostly it makes me mad

The light in this spot so bad, made pain on my head
I heard the laughter no fun more
as the stars change to cherry's red
to feel my hatred grow all the more to extreme

but to me the salvation appears on my dreams
Oh, can this world really be as sad as it seems

I wish....for
The door will opened and I can feel the wind appearred
wait for the curtain flew..to someone says
..don't be afraid...

My scratch (1)

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If only I could do,
I would
emptiness is loneliness, for its cleanliness
And clealiness is godliness; God is empty like me

It just a little tears, let them spill
for not being alone

Are you the one I have been waiting for ?